Quit Biting Industry

Seriously. What if I died
in that bath tub
when I laid my body
fully clothed
into the warm water
sloshing over the rim?

What if I dreamed the last
eleven or so years?

You know, I could be a vegtable
right now
or in vanilla ice with tom cruise . . .

ok, that had to make you laugh(cringe).
it's a bit like that--
just a little sum something
to snap me out of a mood
and make me giggle like a child.

on the inside.

on the outside? I don't like sex anymore
and that bothers me.

i've sortof out grown my world,
but am afraid to admit it--just don't want to
hurt anyone. i know that sounds horrible--
if not teenangst--but it may be true.

if i had a 13-year-old daughter
she would leave her notebook out one too many
nights and i'd have to peak.
i'd see a couple sentences that would make my head spin
and make me question too much
too fast.

can an identity crisis last
one's entire life? how wretched
if that were so.

I have 5 bucks left on iTunes
and no where to go.
I keep waiting for something dramatic to happen.